today is another day

why do they say "life is a bed of roses" ? Is it because it is uncomfortable, full of thorns, aphids and looks nicer than it really is.

Song - Bon Jovi "Bed of Roses"...



... later
I'm feeling really low today, no particular reason why, just can't seem to get any enthusiasm for anything. Wanted to make some soap... couldn't be bothered. Wanted to make and pack some items I sold on ebay... did 2 and couldn't be bothered.
*BUT* I don't feel as angry today. Just want to lie in bed and sleep or at least drift quietly without anything disturbing me, but then if i did - I'd get bored and lonely. I'm so needy! I hate being alone. Even if one of the dogs is with me it's not as bad; but they're off playing.

World Cup ... not here
Big Brother ... who cares!
Is there any news? well not on the aol welcome page and i can't be bothered searching.

I have such a disfunctional relationship with my oldest daughter. I love her to bits but I just don't understand her, and don't think she even likes me.

**TRIGGER**
I feel so much like cutting myself but so far I've managed not to. Maybe thats where the anger has gone. So far I'm managing just to keep myself hungry, feeling hunger distracts.

Maybe going to sleep would be the best thing I could do!