Mothers Day Blues

Its mothers day - I have 4 children yet no cards no phone calls - nothing. Was I such a crap mum? I even trid phoning 2 of them but they were both too busy to talk - tried phoning my own mother but as usual no-one is home. \i'm so depressed I dont see any point any more. This is my first mothers day with no children and its just going to get worse and worse. \\\\\i want to get the stanley knife and cut 4 deep grooves in my arm to equal the 4 deep grooves in my heart. I want to cut all my hair off but i dont have the motivation to movee out of bed to go find the knife or the sissors (sp?) I just want to howl.